The Repeating Learning/Unlearning, Healing, Living Spiral

I had the thought and vision for this share about a month ago and since then have had a new feeling about it come in. I have been reflecting and feeling a lot of past, future and current selves and the quantum timeline and it got me thinking about the past versions of me. As I sit with the memory of my past selves, I feel a sense of comfort and love. This makes me think of the future version of me that will (is?) looking at me now…with more patience and understanding and compassion and love for me than I have for myself in this moment if the past repeats itself. Until we see it then it can cease repeating and catupylt us to new heights, new spaces, new frequency.

 I have felt struggle much of the time trying to align with my highest self (strongest, most at peace, most self-compassion and love) and at the same time I feel comfort in looking back at visions of myself because I was on the right path and I had the intention. I was on the steady path, leading myself the right way. Teaching myself the needed things. This part of the spiral, I just have accumulated much wisdom or healing. I was just at a different stage of the spiral.

I have had a few lifetimes of experiences, it seems at some times and though I won’t get into what those are, the “collection” has sometimes given me the sense that I have “gotten” to experience most everything in this life. I used to think life was happening to me – for sure. Partly because of my inexperience and partly due to my many times passive personality or tendencies. I have recently found my voice out of necessity – this vessel couldn’t internalize any suppressing or silence or so much fear any longer. Though I still have some way to go to freely express myself instead of waiting for the fire to grow within me to burst in flames with my arguments of the injustice or the sadness I feel, I am more aligned with my beliefs, feeling, words and actions (I am not as much saying one thing and feeling another to keep the peace and not rock the boat or disappoint others - and when I do opt for that option, I am fully aware and observing now at least). I have a love of beauty and excellence in others and in the Earth and I also a fear that prevents “truly living” in some senses (one of my many dualities). The depths I live in internally don’t yet match my physical world.

As I keep navigating the spiral (as we all are), I now know to (and how to) drop in, take the big picture in and can look back and I love myself, look forward and feel excited, look within and be at peace – with all of me.

“You can be a work in progress and still be whole.”